Tuesday, September 2, 2008
This post not for anyone but to myself to express my feeling now.. My feeling now is so bad, and confuse and sad and kind of irritated.. (Hope my spelling is correct) Today was suppose to be pei lao po day and should be a happy day and i should be baking cookies now de, now is all gone. :( This morning went out for breakfast at causeway point then off to watch my 11.30am movie show Money Not Enough 2 after then shop around take bus go home and tat the point of time my feeling totally change..! So does James (To cool himself down in order not to quarrel with me, he went to sleep once he reached my house) I don't mind cos i also don't wan to end up like this too. This is what happened: Ah Ma called, said why Donald is staying at my house i didn't tell her & i bluff her), then why i go bring/show James to Ah Gong. Then why i bring/show Ah Gong then how about her? Then moomoo every morning sit Donald car to school also didn't tell her. First why is she making so big deal now? (Although i know she does care about us la) She is just so unreasonable la, i try to kept quiet let her nag all the way she wants! (She nag all the way from i get up the bus till i get down) No matter how much she cares about us, she should not say some hurting words what. I bring/show James to Ah Gong does not mean I'm not going to show her or want, I'm not trying to tell you people that James is going to be my husband for now. All i wan is to let u people know who am with. I do try to intro my friends to my family too cos i find it that at least my family knows who I'm with, who my friends, who i usually hang put with. Must this be a reason to intro my friend too? And What wrong with a age of my age dating now? So what if is my first time working ended up having a bf too? Must this be a reason too? Is just the timing came what! I can be like a kids but i can think too. [Heard that she given birth to my Mum at the age of 19 but till my Er Yi was born having my Xiao Yi in the stomach then she was married] She afraid that my Mum has walk the same as her (Not totally la) and she think i will do the same. I didn't say i don't want to bring/show her ar, that why i arranged on the 19Sep what. She (Ah Ma) think that Mummy asked me go back, now trying to ask Moomoo come back home then once she back, Mummy will ask us to disown her. Why does she think this way? The more she think this way the more it will happen lol. I sick of all this family problem. There is one sentence which can be describe only 儿孙自有儿孙福！Haiz. This family problem will never ends, I'm serious no matter how i wish everything is settle down. I know she already trying to give in, i not sure how good she is at seeing people, but i wants to trust myself. I wants to believe in myself. How i wish I'm now 21 years old so i can do whatever things i want even leaving the house to a place where no one knows me. No ones understand my feeling right now, guess what i feel like crying lol (tear got so much de lei, just now watched $ no enough 2 also cried le, what a touching show is more then there no $ lol, the mum just her life up when i have the mood then i will you more ba) Mummy can't stand Ah Ma, Er Yi can't stand Ah Gong (The opposite way too for both), Er Yi can't stand Xiao Yi whole family. What wrong with everything? Ah Ma afraid for Donald is a guy who wants sex and $ only. What This?? Donald can't tahan it, so does Mummy, so does James, Xiao Yi, Moomoo, and Me! Can't tahna Ah Ma i mean! So what if we just told her off/ Does that help answer will be NO it will only become worse. I don't care who reads this post, this is the only way to express all the thing i wants to say now! I HATE IT, Seriously i can't take it anymore. I didn't say i wants total freedom but i can have my own freedom and privacy de ar! What is going wrong now? In any case, no one understand feeling right now. :( I have spend 1 hr typing all this. OHNO!
Its just me and you my dear
3:13 PM
